cia-yang-di 1

dearest : cia

hello cia...
well ummm....

it's just like i want to talk and chat with you but i dont know whether i'm still in a position to talk to u freely after what has happened over the last 2 days...i miss you badly

i'm sorry....i hope that word will be just enough for you eventhough for me it seems far from enough...i'm sorry for everything that i've done that might hurt u and i know u were hurted by my stupid and childish act

i wish u didnt remember it and didnt even think u heard it...i was wrong and i just never think you and your feeling...you're having a very selfish and narrow minded boy hahaha....and you've been great to be able to stand here beside me suffering from my hellish torture and didn't complain a bit..

you are a good girl...a very very good girl honestly...i know i dont know much about you and i haven't experience much of love n life with you. you are a great in many ways and you are lovely. i have had my best laugh with you and i enjoy your stay beside me...it was very warm and lovely...although so far its only your voice that companies me.

it is frustating enuf especially for a person like me for having no company at all....ha ha ha....i wish i have a girl...and now i have one....and now i realize its harder to know you have a girl but she never able to stay and company you whenever possible rather than to know u dont have any girl...

i'm happy to have you....
and i know i do....

in case u dont know it
or in case i never show it to you...
tell you heart this
i'm happy to have you

di