Different Path

We are now in diffirent ways... This is what i feel rite now.

I hate ppl hiding me from something. When we started this relationship, we ever face tis problem as well and ever cross in my mind to give up..

But after 3 years later, actually you still in same habit...

Some ppl are rite, "you are not get freedom anymore after you are in a relationship". I aware of that as well. And you are rite, we are too early met each other.

I feel that you are still in your 22-24 years old zone which i am not in that part anymore. Feel that you are hard to let go that part. and me fews steps in front of you already.

Yeah, you are still young, still have a lot of times to play. but not for me, my goal is not that kind of things. Just let me go if you are not ready in my path.. Please please dont waste my time.

Am i regret to login into yr facebook? i think i am not. That is make me realize that you are not ready. Maybe you are rite if you said my jealous, but that is not tjhe point.

Changes feelings...

It has been a long time i didn't update or open my blog anymore...

So many things that already happen in my life...so many...

My working life, my friendship life, my personal life.

Rite now i'm will join with another company. Actually i really enjoy working in Ep carriers, i love my job. I have a good relationship with my bosses, my colleagues. If can, i really dont wan to move from here. I also give thks to God already give this chance to working in here. I learn a lot a lot from here. this place become " batu loncatan" for me. I start from do not know everything about AR, acct, n become the person rite now... and i found out that acct job is suit for me.
I have a good payment also. I am not only focus on working only, but also have a person time, leasury time.This is what a call a lovely time for me...

But this situation only last not longer than 1 year. Due to this financial crisis n another internal matter, ep can not survive. Start from retrencment , pay cut n close down...

And I must go on... find another job. Actually I a lil bit give up n in the situation i feel bored due to few interview n did not hired me. but finally got a job too. Next what make me worry is convert my s-pass... To find a job, i really really must cross hindarance step by step..ckckck...

My childhood best friend, Lidya, finally decide back for good. Feel lost of this friend. Yap, i know both of us not meet every time or share everything. but still have this feeling..

I dont really like changes. I am the person who feel satisfied for what i have know n give thanks for it. Even i know sometimes change to a better one. But i hate the feeling of changes.

Nite view

When i was came here to holiday, when became the last nite in here.. i like to see starry nite. i can look out from the window, stand in here for a long time.. when i gonna sleep, i can silent to say gud nite to the sky nite..

Here i am, already stay in here. n now before i sleep from my bed i can direct look at the nite sky... sometimes this feeling, seems like become the last nite i'm in here... i like to see the nite. i like to see the sky.. Can i waiting for shooting star? =P

....lovely home

Actually i want have a single room. Because it was my dream to have my own room, my own stuff, what i want to put, how i decore it, when i want messy up , when i want tidy it, it's all up to me..hehehee...

But at that time when i want decide to have a single room n live with other housemate which i'm not familiar with.. i also have a lil bit worry too. I'm a talkactive one and i dont want if i want to share something it means i must talk to wall.ehhehe...

It is different if you stay with you some friends that (at least) already know each other.

So right now stay @ redhill not bad lha, when i want sharing, i know with whom i will talk with. When i want play card, i know must find who. When i want laught, i know must see who. When i want cooking, when i want advice, when i want watch dvd, when i want bully2, when i want singing, duet.. ..... i can find it at my home.. heheheeh..... see, isn't great?

Lovely Home..

Dear my hip hip hulla blog,

Yeahhh..finally i got shelter place which is i call home, family which is my housemate, earnig money which is a good job.

Yap, my (temporary) housemate already release me to stay with them before/after renew contract. thks a lot for all of them... already receive me when i'm homeless, jobless, when i am nothing...ciieeehhh,.....(am i rite now everything?? ) heheheh...

Thks God..Already arrange the georgious way to me...

Lesson to learn

Sometimes i dont understand about human mind set...Sometimes I feel so funny ... so ridiculous..

That why I must learn /understand the meaning of : " Don't judge people by a cover "

Ketika aku mengalami sesuatu hal, org2 cuma bisa berkomentar gua begini begitu, gua seems like kok seperti ini, gua bertindak kok seperti itu. Dan mereka mungkin merasa heran dan aneh dgn tindakan gua. Membandingkan gua dgn ini dan itu. Actually I'm really thanksful atas kritikan mereka. Yap memang gua anggap itu sebagai masukan ato pelajaran utk gua. Tp itu hak aku untuk mengikuti saran tersebut ato tidak.

Ketika pada saat org tersebut mengalami hal yg sama seperti aku alami, kenapa mereka terkadang lupa dgn ucapan/ kritik yg pernah mereka lontarkan utk aku? Malahan menurut penilaian aku sndr, tindakan mereka melebihi dr sikap yg aku ambil terdahulu pada saat aku mengalami pengalaman tersebut.

That why sometimes i feel so funny... HHmm?!? dulu org tersebut bisa mengkritik aku, skrg knapa tidak menilai dan mengkritik diri anda sendiri??

hehehehe.....ckckckck....

embrassing moments ( yg laen)

Mau pingsan pas selesai jd blood donate..ehhehehe.... Dah keringat dingin n pucat. Gmn gak, pg donate gk sarapan, cuma makan biskuit doank...heheheh....aduh, padahal hari itu ada yg ganteng lho didpn mata ku...malu d..hehehehehe...