Behind These Hazel Eyes

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
By.Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Mind is blank
Silent in a few minutes
empty...

Only sound of ticking of clock
and heartbeat
accompany

Insecure inside
confuse
is it real or not?

who thinks too much..

In here very dark
groping with hands

Find the answers
for something unsure

Try to fix the feeling
something that should accept
The True

Ambiguity

曖昧 Ai Mei (Ambiguity)

曖昧讓人受盡委

ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu

Ambiguity makes people nurse grievances

找不到相愛的證據

zhao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju

The proof of love can’t be found

何時該前進　何時該放棄

he shi gai qian jin, he shi gai fang qi

When should I go foward; when should I hug you?

連擁抱都沒有勇氣

lian yong bao dou mei you yong qi

I can’t even gather the courage to hug you　

只能陪你到這裡　

zhi neng pei ni dao zhe li

I can only accompany you this far

畢竟有些事不可以

bi jing you xie shi bu ke yi

There are still some things we can’t do

超過了友情, 還不到愛情

chao guo le you qinq, hai bu dao ai qing

We’re more than friends, but we haven’t become a couple yet

遠方就要下雨的風景

yuan fang jiu yao xia yu de feng jing

The faraway [place] is going to become a rainy view

到底該不該哭泣　

dao di gai bu gai ku qi

Should I cry or not?

想太多是我還是你

xiang tai duo shi wo hai shi ni

Is it me or you who thinks too much?

我很不服氣　也開始懷疑

wo hen bu fu qi, ye kai shi huai yi

I’m really not convinced, and I’m starting to suspect

眼前的人是不是同一個真實的你

yan qian de ren shi bu shi tong yi ge zhen shi de ni

Is the person in front of my eyes the same you or not?

曖昧讓人受盡委

ai mei rang ren shou jin wei qu

Ambiguity allows people to nurse grievances

找不到相愛的證據

zhao bu dao xiang ai de zheng ju

The proof of love can’t be found

何時該前進　何時該放棄

he shi gai qian jin, he shi gai fang qi

When should I go foward; when should I hug you?

連擁抱都沒有勇氣

lian yong bao dou mei you yong qi

I can’t even gather the courage to hug you

曖昧讓人變得貪心

　ai mei rang ren bian de tan xing

Ambiguity allows to become greedy-hearted

直到等待失去意義

zhi dao deng dai shi qu yi yi

Until waiting has lost its meaning

無奈我和你　寫不出結局

wu nai wo he ni, xie bu chu jie ju

However, you and I cannot write out the ending

放遺憾的美麗　停在這裡

fang yi han de mei li, ting zai zhe li

Let the beauty of pity stop in this place.

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Coral Sea...

珊瑚海
Shan Hu Hai
Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Vincent Fong (方文山)

(周杰倫) 海平面遠方開始陰霾
(Jay) hai ping mian yuan fang kai shi yin mai
悲傷要怎麼平靜純白
bei shang yao zen me ping jing chun bai
我的臉上
wo de lian shang
始終挾帶
shi zhong jia dai
一抹淺淺的無奈
yi mo qian qian de wu nai

(梁心頤) 你用唇語說你要離開
(Lara) ni yong chun yu shuo ni yao li kai
(心不在)
(xin bu zai)
那難過無聲慢了下來
na nan guo wu sheng man le xia lai
洶湧潮水
xiong yong chao shui
你聽明白
ni ting ming bai
不是浪而是淚海
bu shi lang er shi lei hai

(合) 轉身離開
(Together) zhuan shen li kai
(你有話說不出來)
(ni you hua shuo bu chu lai)
分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
海鳥跟魚相愛
hai niao gen yu xiang ai
只是一場意外
zhi shi yi chang yi wai
我們的愛
wo men de ai
(給的愛)
(gei de ai)
差異一直存在
chai yi yi zhi cun zai
(回不來)
(hui bu lai)
風中塵埃
feng zhong chen ai
(等待)
(deng dai)
竟累積成傷害
jing lei ji cheng shang hai

(合) 轉身離開
(Together) zhuan shen li kai
(分手說不出來)
(fen shou shuo bu chu lai)
分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
蔚藍的珊瑚海
wei lan de shan hu hai
錯過瞬間蒼白
cuo guo shun jian cang bai
當初彼此
dang chu bi ci
(你我都)
(ni wo dou)
不夠成熟坦白
bu gou cheng shu tan bai
(不應該)
(bu ying gai)
熱情不再
re qing bu zai
(你的)
(ni de)
笑容勉強不來
xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
愛深埋珊瑚海
ai shen mai shan hu hai

(周杰倫) 毀壞的沙雕如何重來
(Jay) hui huai de sha diao ru he zhong lai
有裂痕的愛怎麼重蓋
you lie hen de ai zen me zhong gai
只是一切
zhi shi yi qie
結束太快
jie shu tai kuai
你說你無法釋懷
ni shuo ni wu fa shi huai

(梁心頤) 貝殼裡隱藏什麼期待
(Lara) bei ke li yin cang shen me qi dai
(等花兒開)
(deng hua er kai)
我們也已經無心再猜
wo men ye yi jing wu xin zai cai
面向海風
mian xiang hai feng
鹹鹹的愛
xian xian de ai
嘗不出還有未來
chang bu chu hai you wei lai

(合) 轉身離開
(Together) zhuan shen li kai
(你有話說不出來)
(ni you hua shuo bu chu lai)
分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
海鳥跟魚相愛
hai niao gen yu xiang ai
只是一場意外
zhi shi yi chang yi wai
我們的愛
wo men de ai
(給的愛)
(gei de ai)
差異一直存在
chai yi yi zhi cun zai
(回不來)
(hui bu lai)
風中塵埃
feng zhong chen ai
(等待)
(deng dai)
竟累積成傷害
jing lei ji cheng shang hai

(合) 轉身離開
(Together) zhuan shen li kai
(分手說不出來)
(fen shou shuo bu chu lai)
分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
蔚藍的珊瑚海
wei lan de shan hu hai
錯過瞬間蒼白
cuo guo shun jian cang bai
當初彼此
dang chu bi ci
(你我都)
(ni wo dou)
不夠成熟坦白
bu gou cheng shu tan bai
(不應該)
(bu ying gai)
熱情不再
re qing bu zai
(你的)
(ni de)
笑容勉強不來
xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
愛深埋珊瑚海
ai shen mai shan hu hai

(Jay) It begins to become grey at a far away place on the ocean plane

How can sadness be tranquil and pure white?

On my face

Still holding

A bit of shallow helplessness

(Lara) You use lip language to say you have to leave

(Your heart is not here)

That sadness slows down without a sound

The turbulent tide

You understand when hearing

It’s not the wave but the sea of tears

(Both) Turn around and leave

(You have words you cannot say out)

Can’t say break up

The sea crow and fish love each other

It was only an accident

Our love

(The love given out)

Difference existing all along

(Cannot come back)

The dust in the wind

(Waiting)

Unexpectedly accumulates into hurt

(Both) Turn around and leave

(Can’t say break up)

Can’t say break up

The sky blue Coral Sea

Missing the momentary paleness

At that time you and I

(You and I both)

Were not mature and honest enough

(Shouldn’t)

The passion is not there anymore

(Your)

Smile cannot be forced

Love is deeply buried in the Coral Sea

(Jay) How can the devastated sand carving be rebuilt?

How can love that has cracks be covered up?

It was only that everything

Ended too fast

You say you can’t set your mind to rest

(Lara) What expectation is hidden in the shell?

(Waiting for the flower to blossom)

We both already have no mood to guess

Facing the sea wind

The salty love

I can’t taste what future there still is

(Both) Turn around and leave

(You have words you cannot say out)

Can’t say break up

The sea crow and fish love each other

It was only an accident

Our love

(The love given out)

Difference existing all along

(Cannot come back)

The dust in the wind

(Waiting)

Unexpectedly accumulates into hurt

(Both) Turn around and leave

(Can’t say break up)

Can’t say break up

The sky blue Coral Sea

Missing the momentary paleness

At that time you and I

(You and I both)

Were not mature and honest enough

(Shouldn’t)

The passion is not there anymore

(Your)

Smile cannot be forced

Love is deeply buried in the Coral Sea

Lagu ini bagus n pengen share liriknya aja ama yg suka dgn ini lagu =) Enjoy it !!

Cheers,

KT

Explanation…

Ttg blog gua yg title nya cia-yang-di 1 , 2 n 3 itu bukan gua yg nulis n bukan gua yg publish. Pure adi yg publish. So jgn menganggap gua tuh gak jaga privasi…Emang ini tuh blog gua, Cuma skrg tuh ada blog yg gua nulis n yg ditulis adi.. baca cia-yang-di 3 d. disono ada penjelasan n emang wkt itu gak terpublish. So, itu bukan dr emailnya adi n gua sengaja taruh diblog gua ok…Dr blog gua pasti tau d mana yg gua nulis ato mana yg bukan..

Mgkn akan beranggapan kenapa hal privasinya kita ber2 tuh dipublish..Dr awalnya gua nulis blog itu, sbnrnya maksud gua yah biasa2 aja n menjelaskan kehidupan gua. Toh kalau ada yg mau baca yah silakan aja..kalo ada yg mau comment yah silakan jua n gua berterima kasih utk itu.Gua suka saran n kritikan dr org jua. Cuma ada hal2 yg kalian mgkn anggap gak perlu dipublish n guanya publishin, maksud gua tuh yah sebenarnya kalau misalnya gua lgsg masuk ke blog gua, keltytania@blogspot.com, gua bisa baca blog gua sndr dr sisi seorg pembaca bukan dr sisi seorg penulis blog itu. Gua pengennya yah gua bisa nilai diri gua sndr. Lgan gua manusia, gua mgkn aja salah langkah. Gua gak mau monoton dgn jalan gua yg mgkn dr segi seorg penulis tuh gua bener tp toh kalo gua baca dr segi yg lain mgkn gua ada salahnya jua…

Gua sih orgnya terbuka yah.terserah d kalian kalo mau baca yah baca aja..emang sih sesudah gua mengetahui blog gua byk yang baca, gua jg gak begitu leluasa buat ngeblog, gua akui itu..Cuma yah pas kalo gua nulis blog, gua selalu menganggap bhw ini blog gua.. =)

stickwitu ciaemon

stickwitu - pussycat dolls

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybodies breaking up
And Throwing their love away
but i know i got a good thing right here
That's why I say

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick wit u Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick wit u My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we rideIn our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
that's why i say

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick wit u Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick wit u My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick wit u

And nowAin't nothing else I can need
And nowI'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got youWe'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you Baby i'm with you, baby you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's, that's why I say

Nobody gonna love me better
Imma stick wit u Forever
Nobody's gonna take me higher
Imma stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me
Imma stick wit u My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
Imma stick wit u

16th Jan 2006

Sebenarnya td dah gua ngeblog, Cuma dodol pas publish gak successful
Gua tuh hari ini dah mulai ker. Sebenarnya sih tgl 11 dah mulai ker, Cuma gua blom balik kemedan hari itu. Kata kolega sih pipi gua +tembem. Padahal td baru timbang trus angka timbangan pun menurun kok..fiuh..ehehe..Mgkn jua pengaruh poni rambut yg baru gua potong sehari seblum brgkt ke sg. Biasa lha, chinese culture dah mau imlek katanya sih potong buat buang sial..hehehe..Aduh, rambut gua kesannya kok skrg susah diatur d >.<

Hari ini mulai ker, utk baby class sih walauuee…krn mereka tuh kan dr orientasi trus skrg tuh org tua or baby sister mereka gak diperbolehkan masuk lagi. Trus libur jua lumayan lama. Bisa dibayangin kan, nangis sana sini, loncat sana sini…habis suara gua. Kalo dipikir2 balik, dulu gua gmn yah ngajar baby class nya? Hehhehe..lagian ini kan bukan pengalaman pertama gua.

Kalo Playgroup sih, menurut gua kyknya perlu ditegasin d cara ngajar gua.Soale mereka tuh ½ thn lagi dah masuk kindergarden n menurut gua class playgroup blum bgt mantep d. Ganbatte ne!!!! Aca..aca..fighting kelty =)

Ngajar…gua njoy bgt dgn ngajar. Td muncul prasaan utk ngajar trus aja d. Tp kalo dipikir2 kalo gua Cuma ngajar gt, kapan gua bisa berkembang. Kalo ngajar yah gt2 aja n gua jua jd – bersosialisasi. \ah gua jd – berinteraktif dgn org laen..Td sih rencana gua ngajar ampe bulan feb ini dah mau stop. Cuma skrg dipikir2 gak bgt tega ninggalin job gua ini d..huhuhuhu…emang d gua cewek plin plan…Gua pkrin ntar lagi d

Aceh n Spore

Dah lama gua gak nulis blog liau..Baru pulang dr spore nih. kesannya capek..hehehhe..trus dah lama gak blog krn tgl 24 dec 2005 gua tuh pulang ke aceh trus balik dr aceh tgl 2 jan 06 trus tgl 5 kespore n krmn baru balik.

Ngomong ttg perjalanana gua ke aceh dulu d. Dah lama bgt gua dah gak pulang aceh sejak trakhir kali pulang pas tamat dr smu n br pulang ke aceh kemrn lalu. Pigi keaceh tuh bisa dibilang dadakan jua. Ide gua yg mau pulang keaceh buat liat2 apa si tsunami itu. ide gua jua buat pulang naek mobil. dah lamaaa bgt dah gak pernah naik mobil pulang keaceh. Perjalanan naik mobil hari tu bisa dibilang lumayan lambat, 12 jam perjalanan medan-aceh..biasanya bisa ditempuh dgn wkt yg agak cepat.

ampe aceh dah malam trus bsknya kan christmas, kegreja meth, tmpt skul gua dulu. Waw..skul gua dah beda bgt..Trus greja yg dulu keliatan besar skrg keliatan kecil..mgkn gua aja yg dah gede. Gua duduk dibalkon, ribut nyaaa..minta ampun.. Disono gak ada suasana christmas nya. mgkn yah maklum aja krn pun dlm suasana peringatan sethn tsunami.

Kalo soal pembangunan diaceh, bisa dibilang lambat. Krn bagian2 dlm kota spt pasar aceh aja blum ada pembangunan gt. kalo malam hari aja mase gelap.kalo mau liat bekas2 tsunami mase bisa skrg ke aceh.

Pantai aceh mase tetep bgs.emang gua gak secara langsung maen kepantainya,tp gua ada kedaerah pantai n cuma lewat.

Soal bisnis,bisa dibilang bisnis apa aja pun kalo diaceh tuh jalan. soale aceh, kota yg baru akan mulai berkembang kembali.Gua sendiri jua ada planning buat balik keaceh n bantu bokap buat cari2 pengalaman kerja yg beda ama kerja gua skrg ini.

Makanan diaceh, hehehhe....tetep aja gua suka ama makanan diaceh. spt martabak heheh..kwetiau, tiram, mie goreng, kepiting..yummy d.Cuma skrg tuh makanan diaceh bisa dibilang mahal liau lho. dulu mah murah bgt..Skrg jua dah byk buka restoran2 baru..n bisnis makanan bisa dibilang lancar.

Sekian blog ttg aceh...

Ttg perjalanan ke spore...soale pertama kali sih gak pengen kesono dulu.krn gua tuh 3 bulan yg lalu baru kesono n jadwal cek up gua pun sehrsnya feb.

Pigi kesono tuh ama timmy (jadwal cek up nya jan so gua yg ikut dgn jadwalya d), mom gua, cc ,ci-hu. org2 ini jua ikut keaceh sih..hehehe...Hasil cek up, ok ok aja..

Dispore pas tgl 7 e si ada hang out ama erwin cs, trus kenalan ama temen baru yg namanya john,song cham jua nih org..hehhehe...

trus tgl 8 tuh ke Johor bahru, simp.renggam, tmpt cc 1 gua. dia tuh baru give birth. Anaknya kecil lucu bgtttt.......Cowok.hehhe..gua dah ada 2 keponakan skrg..he he he...pas diaceh e sih cc gua melahirkan tgl 28 dec. Hidung nya mancung d...Anaknya lucu abis d..

Ira, ccnya, kokonya n kakak2 iparnya balik dr sydney trus kita2 tuh tggl ditmptnya..waw..rame bgt..ngobrol2...curhat2 ama ira..thank u dah dgr curhat gua..pokoke eunak d...ketemu ama sodara2 yg dah lama gak ketemu..heheheh..Thank u for everything.thank u buat kluarga lu jua...

Trus malam trakhir dispore tuh diajak erwin ke NTU buat liat acara yg diselenggarakan EEE. intinya sih acara singing contest , trus ada artis lokal namanya kelly poon, i really njoy it..thank u erwin dah ajak gua, thank u Haem jua dah nemenin jua pas jj n pas ntn acara EEE..

Dispore hujan melulu..bt in..hehhe..tp gua tetep suka spore d..

Adiemon...

kayaknya nama adiemon lbh cocok n lbh enak diucapin d.hehehehhe....

Nih lg diairport dah cek in (3jam seblum nya dah cek in duluan..ehehehehe..ampe no gate aja blum keluar pas check in td)So, sekrg lg di McDnya airport buat ketik blog ini.

Adiemonnnnnnnn...ngapain aja lu hari ni? kok gak reply my sms sih..huhuhuhuh..jahat d lu. huhuhuh...Pdhal kan hari ini lu gak ker jua mah..huahuhuhuh....Lg maen game compie supaya ntar malam bisa chat ama gua ato lg istirahat sepuas2nya ato maen sepak bola ato pigi ke church.. Moga2 sih yg trakhir d.heheheh..spy lu bs bljar buat bersyukur..spt conversation kita kmrn malam itu =p..

lover's concerto

lover's concerto

How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high above in the trees
Serenade the flowers with their melodies

See there beyond the hill
The bright colours of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us
Just fall in love

You'll hold me in your arms,
and say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

Now I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you every part of me

Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonley nights without love
Be always true to me
Keep it stay in your heart eternally

CiAeMon 1

dearest Cia,

dunno what to write actually...

just hate it when you don't update your blog....although i talk with you everyday and everynight, it's just a lovely thing to read your UPDATED blog...not the one u put here...unupdated and i have to update it for you....since you prohibit me to use my own blog so i have to come here and write everything huhuhuhuhu

do you think ciaemon is sweet and funny? it comes from cia and doaremon (originally doraemon but this little girl couldn't read properly or couldnt talk properly? only god knows why)....it's a miracle for you to pass all your grades at school....

it's been a happy day for me lately with you...a very happy and sweet days..since you went to singapore, your voice suddenly become so sweet and lovely....and i love to hear you talking....no matter how long it takes for me to stand at the phone booth....

the weather become cooler lately...probably a sign that autumn is around the corner...will you be here with me when the autumn comes...see the fallen leafs turn yellow and see the reddish sunset? that would be nice if you were here...i hate being alone...i guess everyone hates being alone...and i'm just an ordinary person who loves to be with someone he loves....

love u cia...
ummm....
di...
emon...

cia-yang-di 3

dearest : cia

cia, i forget to say sorry for hacking your blog and write stupid stuffs here...its your fault for sharing me your account hahahaha aniway i didnt do any harm from my point of view here...so i guess that will be ok for you....ummm i hope noone reading this too hahaha since cia cia will get so pissed of with this and she will blush and her face turns red like a steam crab...

i wished to put you on my blog....but since you prohibited and not allowed me to do it, so there's no other way to release my bad habit of writing to other place but this blog hehehehe... gomenasai cia hime..

well....im happy today coz.....i knew i loved you ^_^....
u must be pondering why? isn't it?
well

from the moment u stop smsing me, i always waiting with my mobile phone turned on loud wishing it would ring just once and it is from you and your sms...but no matter how long i waited, it was never happened....yea it rang...but not from you which made me pretty sad...all i want is just a sms....watever it is....tell me where u are, what r u doing, or you can even yell and scold me for what i've done...

i miss your sms that annoyes me, i knew i rarely reply it...but it doesn;t mean i dont like it....its just im so lazy to type...hahaha....speed dialing is much faster....just press a button and i can hear your voice straightaway....altho ummmm...much more expensive hahahaha....but i'll try and learn how to love doing sms for you ha ha ha...

i remembered ppl asking me what love is....just because i'm romantic...hahahaha
well i didn;t answer it properly....but i told them my habit....my habit which i called love...

i tell u cia
love for me is...
calling you from phonebooth no matter how late it is
and no matter how tired and sleepy i am
to not replying your sms and call u from my mobile wherever i am
to think about you everytime i need someone by my side
to sleep with hugging my guling wishing that i could hug you just for tonight (u never know that do u???)
to not be able to wait patiently to see your face with the hairstyle i love most
to let you win!!!! (remember our bet not to contact for a month????) and i let u win easily (a day hahahaha)
well still many more to go but lazy to type it....save my time to do better things hahaha

love is...
a feeling that cannot be described
only
the act that follows the feeling
is the only thing that can be seen and described

love is
unseen and untouchable
big that has no limit of how big it can be
as tall as the highest mountains and as deep as the deepest sea
soft that can touches the deepest realm of the soul
and changes even the toughest heart
strong that makes u poisoned and addicted
makes wait seems so long
and make togetherness seems so fast

love is you
you and you
and no other

missing you

di

ps: love isnya gw buat naturally jadi ngk nyontek siapa2....i guess im back to romantic me hahahaha....stupid cia i miss you...it's just a feeling that makes me do this thing for you and i know what feeling it is...

cia-yang-di 2

dearest : cia

cia, im missing you

the last two day had not been the best days for me...yap...since you're gone...

1st jan?? i said stupid things to you and i knew it hurted you badly....i didnt mean to say those words...i hope u were the deafest girl in the world so u didnt hear it....i hope u were the stupidest woman in this world so u didn't understand what i said...and i hope u weren't my girl at the very least coz i hate to make my beloved one drop a tear coz i'm being silly

i miss u the most...

2nd jan....
yesterday was the worst time experience ever since the first time i was introduced to nando's company...it was a hell for me hehehe....u know i hate being with a stupid person or work with a stupid person...and unfortunately i worked with one yesterday...

i was with one of the best manager in nandos and one of the latest recruit last night...so the three of us have to endure the torture of the restless customers. had it not been the latest recruit and replace it with the better one, things would have worked smoothly but it was never meant to be hahaha

i worked nonstop from 5 to 12 midnight because of this stupid person. normally it would be just 11 at the very latest. and because of him i have to do my job and HIS job....and this manager felt sorry for me and laughed at me offering me a treat afterwork for he couldnt help me at all since he was busy with his job himself...but i was damn busy for busy with my job and busy with other's job....not really good being a manager for having to take care of everything huhuhuhu

huhuhu what a day...and the worst of all was that i didn't have anyone to run to which usually be you...remember everynight i called from phonebooth afterwork and tell u everything? i miss that every moment and i miss u badly last night....i really do miss your voice

di

cia-yang-di 1

dearest : cia

hello cia...
well ummm....

it's just like i want to talk and chat with you but i dont know whether i'm still in a position to talk to u freely after what has happened over the last 2 days...i miss you badly

i'm sorry....i hope that word will be just enough for you eventhough for me it seems far from enough...i'm sorry for everything that i've done that might hurt u and i know u were hurted by my stupid and childish act

i wish u didnt remember it and didnt even think u heard it...i was wrong and i just never think you and your feeling...you're having a very selfish and narrow minded boy hahaha....and you've been great to be able to stand here beside me suffering from my hellish torture and didn't complain a bit..

you are a good girl...a very very good girl honestly...i know i dont know much about you and i haven't experience much of love n life with you. you are a great in many ways and you are lovely. i have had my best laugh with you and i enjoy your stay beside me...it was very warm and lovely...although so far its only your voice that companies me.

it is frustating enuf especially for a person like me for having no company at all....ha ha ha....i wish i have a girl...and now i have one....and now i realize its harder to know you have a girl but she never able to stay and company you whenever possible rather than to know u dont have any girl...

i'm happy to have you....
and i know i do....

in case u dont know it
or in case i never show it to you...
tell you heart this
i'm happy to have you

di